A Thought on Grief and a Little Life Update
It seems I know many people walking through a season of grief.
Right now.
This month.
Im not sure I never noticed it before. Perhaps because I'm getting older and more aware than I was in my youth. Perhaps because of my own walk with grief I can more easily see the pain of grief in others.
I often wonder.... if we all looked at each other through the lens of perhaps, I don't know, basic humanity? We might all see each other differently. Every human alive has experienced the pain of loss in one way or another. If we could simply acknowledge one another's pain and have a bit of empathy, it could change the way we view and treat each other. So could we all just be a little kinder to one another?
Thats just a random thought I've had.
Lion King is currently playing in the background. This film is on the forefront of my mind these day.
Which... not to down play my thoughts on grief. One of my first memories dealing with loss and grief was when
*SPOILER IF YOU HAVENT SEEN LION KING
Mufasa dies.
I bring this up for multiple reasons. The movie is currently being played on my tv for the umpteenth time. There is a 'NEW' version coming out in July. And you can certainly bet on me being there and crying at Mufasa's death, every other happy moment, and while I sing along to every song. There will be tears.
I. WILL. UGLY. CRY.
And the last reason: Liam gave his hand at theatre this spring. He was Mufasa in his school's production of Lion King Jr. His solo made me cry. The death scene was totally epic; utilizing the schools rock wall. And I of course was a super proud stage mom.
While I get ribbed at sometimes for down playing it, I also choreographed the dance numbers for the production. Which made life incredibly busy but incredibly fun. I wouldn't change it. I've joked with directors about hiring me as an "unpaid choreographer" but the reality is I was paid more than enough. I had the privilege of working with some pretty amazing educators, made some wonderful new friends AND I can walk into Liam's school as a mini celebrity! Half of the students know who I am and they think I'm kinda cool. <--- Because of that MY OWN KIDS THINK I'M COOL. Im pretty sure thats payment enough, right?
You guys, have no idea how awesome it is to have cool points with your kids, especially as they get older. I mean Evan and Ezra still act like I hung the sun, moon, and stars. Isaac and Liam know this is not entirely true. I realize my coolness might be short lived but I am going to soak this up for as long as I can, y'all.
I also taught a hip hop class with Chara Dance Project. My students were some pretty rad young ladies who certainly had a lot of fun bringing out their attitude on the dance floor.
Dancing again has been amazing. It's brought back a small portion of my life that I forgot I was missing. I hope not to let it go anytime soon!
***Lion King is still playing in the background. Mufasa's death scene is happening and I need to leave the room.... It breaks my heart every damn time. ***
Isaac is finishing up his first year of middle school which totally blows my mind that
1. I have a child old enough to be in middle school
2. That he is turning into a young man.
He is still very much holding on to his boyhood but occasionally we see glimpses of the young man he is becoming. Some days I am so impressed. Other days his boyhood immaturity takes the show and while it can be incredibly frustrating, I am reminded that he is indeed still a little boy. Tall but still little in his heart. And that is okay.
Evan and Ezra are still Evan and Ezra. Monster and Moose. Peas in a Pod. Everyday they fight. Everyday they hug. Every day I see their brother bond growing stronger. They are super fun and their personality are larger than life. Evan is a talker. Im pretty sure he talks more than Andy. And for anyone who knows Andy.... knows. Ezra is so sweet and snuggly and well aware of his role as the youngest child. He is spoiled and he knows. it.
Andy just returned from his most recent trip to Nepal. Working with Tserings Fund, meeting children sponsored by Tserings Fund, delivering backpacks made by Faith Works Nepal, and visiting orphanages. It was a trip that was incredibly different from years past. He'll have to write about it in a future post.
Its been raining all morning, rain typically pours on a dreary mood for me. And truthfully when I started this post, my heart was tinged with sadness.
But now, reflecting on life, I feel full. It's still raining but in the end it makes all things fresh. I am thankful for renewal and a fresh perspective.
Right now.
This month.
Im not sure I never noticed it before. Perhaps because I'm getting older and more aware than I was in my youth. Perhaps because of my own walk with grief I can more easily see the pain of grief in others.
I often wonder.... if we all looked at each other through the lens of perhaps, I don't know, basic humanity? We might all see each other differently. Every human alive has experienced the pain of loss in one way or another. If we could simply acknowledge one another's pain and have a bit of empathy, it could change the way we view and treat each other. So could we all just be a little kinder to one another?
Thats just a random thought I've had.
Lion King is currently playing in the background. This film is on the forefront of my mind these day.
Which... not to down play my thoughts on grief. One of my first memories dealing with loss and grief was when
*SPOILER IF YOU HAVENT SEEN LION KING
Mufasa dies.
I bring this up for multiple reasons. The movie is currently being played on my tv for the umpteenth time. There is a 'NEW' version coming out in July. And you can certainly bet on me being there and crying at Mufasa's death, every other happy moment, and while I sing along to every song. There will be tears.
I. WILL. UGLY. CRY.
And the last reason: Liam gave his hand at theatre this spring. He was Mufasa in his school's production of Lion King Jr. His solo made me cry. The death scene was totally epic; utilizing the schools rock wall. And I of course was a super proud stage mom.
While I get ribbed at sometimes for down playing it, I also choreographed the dance numbers for the production. Which made life incredibly busy but incredibly fun. I wouldn't change it. I've joked with directors about hiring me as an "unpaid choreographer" but the reality is I was paid more than enough. I had the privilege of working with some pretty amazing educators, made some wonderful new friends AND I can walk into Liam's school as a mini celebrity! Half of the students know who I am and they think I'm kinda cool. <--- Because of that MY OWN KIDS THINK I'M COOL. Im pretty sure thats payment enough, right?
You guys, have no idea how awesome it is to have cool points with your kids, especially as they get older. I mean Evan and Ezra still act like I hung the sun, moon, and stars. Isaac and Liam know this is not entirely true. I realize my coolness might be short lived but I am going to soak this up for as long as I can, y'all.
I also taught a hip hop class with Chara Dance Project. My students were some pretty rad young ladies who certainly had a lot of fun bringing out their attitude on the dance floor.
Dancing again has been amazing. It's brought back a small portion of my life that I forgot I was missing. I hope not to let it go anytime soon!
***Lion King is still playing in the background. Mufasa's death scene is happening and I need to leave the room.... It breaks my heart every damn time. ***
Isaac is finishing up his first year of middle school which totally blows my mind that
1. I have a child old enough to be in middle school
2. That he is turning into a young man.
He is still very much holding on to his boyhood but occasionally we see glimpses of the young man he is becoming. Some days I am so impressed. Other days his boyhood immaturity takes the show and while it can be incredibly frustrating, I am reminded that he is indeed still a little boy. Tall but still little in his heart. And that is okay.
Evan and Ezra are still Evan and Ezra. Monster and Moose. Peas in a Pod. Everyday they fight. Everyday they hug. Every day I see their brother bond growing stronger. They are super fun and their personality are larger than life. Evan is a talker. Im pretty sure he talks more than Andy. And for anyone who knows Andy.... knows. Ezra is so sweet and snuggly and well aware of his role as the youngest child. He is spoiled and he knows. it.
Andy just returned from his most recent trip to Nepal. Working with Tserings Fund, meeting children sponsored by Tserings Fund, delivering backpacks made by Faith Works Nepal, and visiting orphanages. It was a trip that was incredibly different from years past. He'll have to write about it in a future post.
Its been raining all morning, rain typically pours on a dreary mood for me. And truthfully when I started this post, my heart was tinged with sadness.
But now, reflecting on life, I feel full. It's still raining but in the end it makes all things fresh. I am thankful for renewal and a fresh perspective.
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